Ugh. I just updated my blog using my dashboard widget and for some reason it disappeared. Hm.
So last night was my last night at el Heraldo. It was mildly depressing, as NO ONE said goodbye or good luck or anything of that nature (except Pat and C) but honestly, that just reaffirmed my decision to quit! I've worked there almost 2 years and no one could be decent enough to wish me well? Seriously, it's not like I ran over their puppies, I just quit my job. If they couldn't see it coming, well, that's not my problem. I hate when people act like THEY are doing you a favor by letting you work someplace. It's like... you wouldn't be there if you weren't paid (which I BARELY was)
Enough about that.
I'm happy that, after 2 years, I will finally be able to tuck my daughter in to bed at night and read her a story if there's time, and cook dinner for my family. The last 3 months have been so difficult, I barely held on. I saw Devan maybe 10 min. a day, during which she'd amaze me and surprise me with how much she's growing intellectually (on someone else's watch) and then I'd be sad all the way to work that she was becoming a stranger to me. But not anymore.
I'm also excited to have the opportunity to finally devote some time to my letterpress. I want to get my feelers out there so I can get an idea of what direction I plan to go in (creatively) I don't want to do too much right now, because I really need to de-stress. I've finally fixed my tooth and I feel amazing every day (aside from stomach issues, but it's been forever since I've felt good in that dept.) and I'm no longer in a vicodin haze. All in all I'm pretty positive that 2007 is shaping up to be a much better year than 2006.
This has been a whirlwind Holiday season so far. I don't see it slowing down at all. Of course, if I'd stop making plans and just sit around and enjoy everything, things might not seem so crazy. I finally had my heavy duty root canal on Friday, and it was a success, but still is pretty painful. Hopefully by tomorrow or Tuesday I will be done with the Vicodin, which will help my head clear and maybe I can retain some of the Holiday.
Yesterday we had our friend Jenny and her daughter, Lauren, over to play and make cookies and have a nice sleep over.
It was really cute watching the girls play together. At one point Lauren had this idea to make a Devan cookie and a Lauren cookie holding hands. We were all like "awwww" but it's much cuter in theory. The actual cookie was like this bloated disturbing conjoined twin of a cookie. Kinda resembled a cloud but the girls ate it and it was fun.
The girls eventually pooped out, the way only tiny little girls can.
Once the girls were out (which was ridiculously difficult to achieve) we went downstairs and watched Little Miss Sunshine.... Such a good movie. And I love little Abigail Breslin. She was in Grey's Anatomy, as the little girl who thought she was a superhero ('c'mon, punch me in my stomach if you don't believe me!') So I looked her up and it turns out that she is Spencer Breslin's sister. Do you know who he is? Why, he's the KID in 'The Kid' and he's also Conrad in The Cat in the Hat.
Seriously. Cutest siblings ever. At least til Devan has a brother or sister.
Ugh. Well. It's so late. We've finally wrapped all the presents, and tucked them under and, er, all around the tree. Devan's gonna be so stoked. Merry Christmas guys!
I don't even know what to say right now, but I thought I should update. We got our tree on Sunday. (I was going to just put up our old fake tree, but a trip to Rockafeller Center with Jon and my good friend T inspired me to get a live tree.) So we got a real tree. Our first real Christmas tree. Pretty exciting. Devan stayed up late with me, decorating and marvelling at how much Santa will love our beautiful tree. At 6am the next morning I woke to Jon shouting "OH NO! Our tree fell over!" That woke me right up. Jon did a nice job of fixing everything up and cleaning all of the broken ornaments, but the event has sort of soured me. I don't want to get into it all right now, but I have absolutely NO time to spare... so after spending hours on the tree once -- It's a huge pain in the ass to have to carve out time to do it again.
I've also been having spells of getting very sick and vomitting lately. (No, no babies.) :( But it's striking at the worst times. At my new job I was sick all day Tuesday. This is the absolute worst day of the week to be sick, as it is print day, as well as Classified day... as well as being all around busy doing many many things. We stay late on Tuesdays. Well. All day long, from about 1pm on, I was afflicted with... something. My first thought was that I hadn't eaten and had then taken medicine for the toothache that has come back (there's an infection in my jaw.) But after throwing up once in the grass near my car in the parking lot (I went out for fresh air) I felt a little better, and that should have been the end of it. But it wasn't. All day and all night -- Oh, and during the middle of all of this, T text messages me and informs me that he has found out why his body keeps producing huge bruises. Leukemia. This is terrible. Ugh. Poor T. I suddenly feel sheepish for even feeling the slightest bit sorry for myself during all of these 'run to the bathroom with my fingers crossed hoping I'm gonna make it and not embarrass myself in front of everyone' moments. I called out of work Wednesday, due to still vomitting and feeling awful and not being able to eat anything- including TUMS. seriously, aren't tums supposed to help? Turns out they do the opposite. I'm pretty sure it's a stomach flu at this point, and not my Gall Bladder which has to come out soon, and sometimes afflicts me in similar ways, but not for such an extended period of time.
My jaw has swollen up again and feels like it's being stung by about 10 Yellow Jackets right now. That's why I'm not asleep. I just burst out crying a few minutes ago because I'm so overwhelmed. Staying home sick is so stressful, and it eats at me all day long, making it very hard to relax and feel better. Allthough I did watch lots of VH1 celebrity tv today and that did help a bit in taking my mind off it. When I call out there's the moment of relief followed by panic about what my coworkers and other people in the office might think about me (i've had to call off quite a bit recently, due to Devan getting very sick 2 or 3 times since mid-October. And 1 time there was the hellish Dental appointment that left me wounded both physically and emotionally. And one day I had a Gall Bladder attack) So as I was saying, I don't want people to think I'm just screwing around and taking advantage of sick time. I'm absolutely not. I would have gotten my surgery by now if I WANTED to be out of work. A week off would be sweet, even if I was all sore)
I want to talk about something else now. Ugh. Enough complaining, right? on to knitting then. I made 2 mini sweaters as ornaments. They're so cute.
Aaaand, Jon asked me to make him a hat a couple weeks ago to match his coat. Here's a pic of that. Other than these, I've had no knitting at all.
Jon's playing a video game where his mission is to return ho's to a brothel. There's something about this that doesn't sit right with me. He's wearing a hat that I knit him last week. It's cute, and it matches his coat and he requested it so we're both happy. that's good.
Last night was a horrible night. I am pretty sure that I have an infection in my jaw/teeth. I was in such pain it was unreal. Thankfully I have tons of medication and an appointment with a specialist on Dec. 9th.
I've been kind of DOWN lately. How could I not be? I'm in this constant pain, I've got no time, and a complete lack of focus. It's Dec 2nd, and I have no ideas about christmas or anything else right now. I need to start making lists, so that I am not stressing myself and my family out.
Our friend Joe is over right now, and he's talking about this paper he's writing ... it makes me miss college and papers and stuff. :( I should go back!
(Nov 19)
I've been asked to make a Christmas wish list, so here it is. Click on
Santa to view it!
(Dec 11)
I am unable to sleep, so I took time to make the blog archives work. of course, images that were on old yahoo server do not work anymore (read: anything before April 2005) so you'll have to use your imagination. Check the sidebar for a link if you're interested.
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(Nov 22)
There. I finally did it. Now go buy me stuff:)
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(Nov 7)Take note of the changes along the right sidebar. I've been reading blogs, and that, of course, means joining knitalongs!
However my next task (which will be my next announcement)
is to create a holiday wishlist, as there have been several people asking for one.
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(Aug 6) Hi guys, How cute is this: I have a new little niece!! Bryan and Mandie's little girl was born last Sunday (I think)
and in the spirit of utter ridiculousness, I give you, Madelyn dancing.
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(June
1) Here is a little picture. Obviously, these are BF5 lyrics.
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(May
23) Sup dudes? I was kinda bored last night, so I made a picture.
again. only tell me if you like it. I have a fragile ego.
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(May
14) Going through a wave of depression. Don't feel like
doing anything except artwork. Here are a couple
pictures I made. You may have seen them, since they're
meant for my websites. If you've seen them as background
images, excuse the tiling, I'm fixing it when I feel
like it.
if you like them, let me know. if you don't, keep it to
yourself.
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(April 28) Ok... I've been on hiatus. Bear with me and
my broken links and pictures while I move all my junk
around.
Life is good and I'm glad my site is working again.
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(Jan 11) Due to real life
pals/family complaining about how little real life
content there is in this journal, I'm going to make a
real effort to include that stuff, and not just knitting
stuff. I hope this pleases you guys.
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(Jan 10) Today is the
anniversary of my Grampa's death. We still miss you so
much.
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(Jan 4) Congratulations
Michael & Tiffany!!
Welcome to the family,
Tif!
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(Dec 30) Just two quick
notes today:
1. We've got another
completed Casey's Coat.
click to see Vito!
2. I'll be out of town
for about 3 weeks. My brother, Mike, is getting married!
After that I'm going to be house sitting for my mom
while she is out of town. This will not have an affect
on you or my blogging, I just felt like sharing.
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(Dec 2) My brother has
been making me some pretty cool knitting charts. I think
they're mighty awesome and I'm trying to figure out a
project I can use them for. They're pdf files, except
the first one (which is actually not his design, it's
the work of someone on myspace.com) so go ahead and have
at them. If he makes many more charts, I'll disable the
links and offer the chart patterns for a small fee via
paypal, because, after all, it is his art work and he
deserves compensation!
click the images to view full sized charts: 2nd & 3rd images ?2004 R. Wuebker
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(Nov 28)My little sister is a knittin' fool. We shopped
all over for some good needles for her. She's been using
these kids plastic-y needles that I find to be really
uncomfortable and annoying. We tried some aluminum
needles but they were too slick and long. We finally
settled on some Clover Bamboo needles and from what I
have heard, she likes them the best. She's working on a
lavender scarf. I'll have my mom take a pic so I can
post it here.
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(Nov 28) I'm back! Christmas Knitting and yarn stash
enhancement is in full effect in this house. There's a
new(?) Knitting/Fabric store in the town my mom lives
in. It's called Sew Krazy. image is property of sew-krazy.com
They are currently squeezed in a tiny location just
chock full of amazing stuff! They have a whole shelf of
Kaffe Fasset fabrics, which you know I loved. They
had lots of yarn by Rowan and Brown Sheep. They didn't
have any Debbie Bliss. The shop is working on expanding
in a new location, equipped with a beautiful fireplace
(My mom and I peeked through a hole in the door) and
it's HUGE. This place was great and there's a cafe
called Muddy Waters next door. So this place will be
perfect to sit down, relax, drink coffee, and knit by
the fireplace when I go out to visit for 3 weeks in
January. The building is also really beautiful and
contains many other interesting shops. Check it out if
you're ever nearby.
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(Nov 18)Last year for Christmas, Mr. Handsome gave me an
EZ Stir. If you haven't got a clue what an easy-stir
is, (consider yourself lucky) it's a device that
attaches to your pots and pans and stirs your sauces for
you! Ingenious! I have still not taken the EZ Stir out
of its package. This year, I thought I'd make it easy on
my husband and anyone else who wishes to shower me with
gifts.
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(Nov 17)Looking for unique cards to send out this
Holiday season?
Check out
Loobylu
and Darling
Studio for some fabulous and unique holiday cards.
