The girl with kaleidoscope eyes

1.27.2006
giddy-up!

Pergatory is such a wonderful place to be.

Tomorrow night I am going to The Junction, which is a night club thingy. Apparently there is a mechanical Bull. I have no intentions of riding said bull, but I want to go have a good time and laugh and drink with my friends.

you know, just forget things for awhile.

posted @ 4:22 AM

1.20.2006
the worst week of my life

When I was in Ohio, I resolved not to make disgusting, melodramatic posts anymore - because who wants to read that crap? I resolved not to feel so sorry for myself anymore. I resolved to post more fun stuff.

Sorry. I got home and thought things were going to be OK. normal. better. and for a day and 1/2 they were. I don't even want to go into the reasons for this being the worst week of my life but I'll tell you this: I feel like the stupidest, lamest, ugliest, bitchiest, most oblivious and naive, and least wanted person in the world. And on top of that I feel that no matter what I do, I will be wrong. I will also say that while myspace is addictive, at times funny, and exciting - it's also the devil and I wish it never existed.

Also my laptop is in the shop still, so photoshoppin', croppin' and uploadin' fotos is a real pain in the ass. It should be fixed next week so things will be normal on the blogfront soon, I hope.

posted @ 11:20 PM

1.13.2006
guess who's back

(shady's back -- Tell a friend!)

I forgot my camera in my car so pictures will have to wait.

I searched Northeast Ohio in sort of the same way I searched Northern NJ for Animal Crossing DS - to no avail. So I bought it on ebay. *You know what they say. When in doubt, bid on something on ebay.

So yea, it's at the post office, waiting for me. I'm kind of excited. yay!

Time to relax now. Pictures later, I promise.

* they = me

posted @ 2:07 AM

1.11.2006
2 things

I'm having a good time with my friends and family.

I forgot the cord to my camera, so I'll talk about my trip with pictures when I get home.

posted @ 1:51 AM

1.05.2006
I use BRAIN POWER, Duhh

My daughter certainly is competitive. Tonight I went to walmart with fingers and toes crossed, hoping to snag a copy of Animal Crossing for the DS - basically my only mission in life these days. There were none in stock, so I ran around, picking up necessities for the trip tomorrow. Graham cracker sticks, Windshield wiper fluid, chewing gum, and I also picked up Memory (the card game where you try to make matches) for Devan.

After we got home from eating at Pizza Hut and picking up my paycheck, we played 2 games. The first game Devan beat me and pointed to her head and said "I use brain power, duh!" and then I kicked her ass and jon's at the second games. Insult me and I take no prisoners. We had fun. Oh and apparently Jon likes me again, so don't go getting your heart set on dating me. I'm still in limbo.

Eyelids are heavy. Must publish and read a bit and go to sleep. Tomorrow it's gonna get a LITTLE MIDWESTERN in here! YAY!

posted @ 11:52 PM

1.04.2006
Good things and bad things.

2006 - not the brilliant, shining year I'd hoped it would be. How do I know this, only 4 days into it? Because I'm smart. That's why. Not even a day after saying FUCK YOU to 2005, 2006 had turned to shit. Utter and complete shit. But on the bright side, at least I'll be visiting my family and friends next week. That makes me happy.

I have tomorrow off work, and all of next week. My boss is seriously like, my personal savior and I have to go to the store and pick up this awesome Elvis stationary and give it to her as a present (uh, and you know, buy some for myself too.. since Elvis=Love) Last night, after deciding I'd finally had enough of my husband's weird behavior, I told him i want to end it. I don't really want to get into specifics, but you know, we love each other, etc, but maybe we're better of as BEST FRIENDS FOREVER or something instead of husband and wife?? I don't know.

I'm a good, strong, loving, mildly attractive, and sort of talented person. Life has alot to offer and I need to stop 'selling myself short' Thanks to Patrick for that handy bit of advice. I deserve more, or somethin'

Creative Group called today while I was dropping my daughter at preschool. I gave Jessie an awesome reference and the company would also like me to come in for an interview, for freelance design, etc.

Tonight I have to go to work early. I want to stop at a florist and pick up a nice vase of flowers for Jon's mom. She's over at newton hospital and is very sick. She's been there since new years day, I think?

Tomorrow I have to run all over the universe, filling prescriptions, making plans, going to the bank, etc. (maybe picking up animal crossing for the DS?!??!??!) to get ready for my trip. Fingers are crossed that there will be no snow.

I am really loving my job right now and DON'T want to leave right now, There's a new girl, Jenny, and basically we're living parallel lives, so it's nice to be able to commiserate, and also get ourselves psyched about being single! yay! mothers! yayx2! living in one of the most expensive counties in the US! YAYYYY! wooooo. I'm not being entirely sarcastic. It really is kind of exciting to think about the possibilities. Being by myself kind of excites me. I dealt with it once, it's not the end of the world, it is just sucky and complicated at times. It's unfortunate though, that I'm married to the best guy already, and that we're just not compatible. He's got big shoes to fill.. and you know what they say about guys with big shoes ;) no... not that. Sorry, I'm rambling again. Well it's high time I got in the shower and cleaned up for work. Ugh. I wish i had more time. I want to go outside and take photos of the trees with snow all over the branches. It's so beautiful and perfect. BUT I GOTTA GO.

posted @ 1:53 PM

1.03.2006

Till I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's "bye-bye. Goodbye, I tried"
And I twisted it wrong just to make it right
I had to leave myself behind
And I've been flying high all night
So come pick me up
I've landed

posted @ 5:41 PM

1.02.2006
brrr!

I'm broadcasting to you LIVE from my bed, where I'm sitting indian-style (is that PC? I doubt it) tippy-typing on Jon's laptop. Where's my laptop, you might be asking yourself (or not). Well Jon tried to help it and he broke it so it won't even turn on! It's in the shop, being fixed AS WE SPEAK. I got my mac working and online again and I did a couple super-shitty ads for my mom this weekend. I haven't used my mac in several months, so I had to get rid of alot of stuff that made me :( when I looked at it. Pictures and crappy poetry.

I hate winter. Really. After new years, it's all just annoying. And i get sooo itchy all over during the winter months, that it just is impossible to sleep.

I finally finished those silly socks I was working on. I've taken a photo, but (lol) the software that came with the camera is um... inside my laptop.. so I'll show you's guys a photo later.

I had the worst night ever and felt all dramatic and crap, and I even wrote a really long, sappy entry in my journal. Oh yea. I meant to mention that. I don't really say too much on here these days cuz i've gone back to keeping a paper journal where no one can comment about how dumb and melodramatic I am.

oh, one last thing. I've been thinking about new year's resolutions. I'll write more about that next time.

And a PS. Annie's Mailbox (AKA Ann Landers) for Tuesday is the biggest pile of shit ever, and I was tempted to draw horns on the women's faces but seriously. Don't read Annie's mailbox on tuesday, if you happen to get it in your newspaper. Annie's dead and her column should die too. it spawned the hugest discussion, and made me feel bad tonight at work. suck it, Landers!

posted @ 4:25 AM

1.27.2006 giddy-up!

1.20.2006 the worst week of my life

1.13.2006 guess who's back

1.11.2006 2 things

1.05.2006 *I use BRAIN POWER, Duhh*

1.04.2006 Good things and bad things.