So Tomorrow (er, later today) is Halloween. Unfortunately I don't get to watch my little girl trick-or-treat, but I'll get to watch her sing songs and parade around with her class at pre-school. I hope her costume looks good. I made it and I didn't really take my time, so it's a little bit sloppy. Oh well. Can't win them all!
Work is kind of busy now, I'm helping out with design in the sports department. I'm kind of excited about the work I'm doing because I really like sports photography. I had something else to say but I can't remember. Darn. OH. We started watching 24 last night and it's pretty awesome. We watched 7 or 8 episodes in a row and I'm hooked. At least we've got something to take our minds off of Lost, since there won't be a new episode for a few more weeks.
Like coming off the pills that you take to stay happy...
Last weekend I kind of realized that no one really knows me. I was thinking about work and how everyone just kind of expects jokes and funny random things and giggles to spew out of me constantly and I think if these people could see me when I'm at home, crying myself to sleep on the couch or if they could see me the way Jon sees me. They wouldn't believe it. He deserves a lot of credit for dealing with me as well as he does.
I don't really know why I am posting this. I guess maybe it would explain why I'm not coming around so much to update. I'm just not in a good place right now, and no it's not environmental - it's just me. It will pass like it always does, and i'll be embarrassed that I ever brought it up.
It's so weird, you know. People NEVER make me feel this way. Even when Jon was gone and that other guy was a jerk to me, I never felt like this. It was more 'this sucks, I'm lonely. but at least I know why and now I can pick myself back up again' It's when this hits and there's no reason. We're all fine. Good even. Of course we've got bills and problems and crappy weather but we're all fine. It's so much harder to handle when there's no reason (outside of me just being INSANE.)
blahhh sorry. I just had to vent. I'm fine and don't worry about me.
I went to the mall @ Short Hills, which is the RUDEST mall in america probably, and every car there (except mine & jon's) is a BMW or a mercedes or something ritzy. It's so fancy schmancy there's not even a food court. They have like, the neiman marcus restaurant and au bon pain or whatever. We ate at a kinda fancy Sbarro (yea, weird,right?) and I had delicious salad and roasted potaters and a little ziti. We went because we were taking Jon's grandmother to get one of those breast cancer Bracelets at the brighton store. I walked in to a store and looked at a cute little handbag and it was seriously $620 and I was like damn. I ended up buying some DKNY Be Delicious perfume and it smells delicious but the only reason I really got it was cuz it came with this bag that I liked that was green and matched my new green peacoat.
When I got home I saw that my cousin had a baby and I didn't even know she was pregnant. Also Jon's coworker and his wife just had their baby and I'm very excited for them. Umm also it's my aunt denise's birthday and I think in celebration of all these events, and as a tribute to my aunt denise on her birthday, I'm going to thaw the wedding cake top in the freezer and eat it. Also because it's way past my anniversary and I want to clear out space for the soup leftovers I want to make for dinner.
I'm sleepy. Also toasted almond coffee from dunkin donuts is the bomb.
I haven't exactly been busy, I've just been really lazy. Work has been 'ehh' and I have had a couple other opportunities laid out in front of me. The problem is that the only thing I want is to be at home with Devan. Time is moving too fast and I feel like I'm missing out on everything. I feel really guilty when I take time out for myself and just relax. I always feel like I'm being pulled in the opposite direction of where I'm going. It's not all that pleasant.
Right now I'm being pulled up the stairs and out the door. I'll write more when I've got more to say.
I've made brownies, choco chip cookies, rice krispie treats (ehh)and now I'm baking a cheesecake. I stuck my finger in before I stuck it in the oven and it tastes awesome. I made my own crust too, cuz I'm just that kinda gal. I don't think I'll be making anything else today. I have a huge bowl of apples that will most likely become apple pies this weekend, but the bakesale is covered as far as apple pies are concerned. The pie I made last weekend was awesome though. I told Jon that when I make an apple pie, it's like makin' sweet love to a pie dish... and uh... he didn't eat any of it. I think he lost his appetite. Actually, he never eats my pies. Not because they aren't delicious, because they are. He just doesn't like apple pie (because he's insane).
We've finished Devan's Gertrude Hawke chocolate fundraiser. She (meaning Jon and I) raised $433.50 for hurricane victims. I think that's pretty good, considering we didn't really even try.
I'm really tired right now. It's just hit me all of the sudden. I think I'll set my little alarm on my cell phone and take a tiny little nap once my cheesecake is done baking.
So we've caught up on Lost, Season 1. Jon downloaded the first 3 episodes of season 2. We got a new cable to connect the laptop to the tv, and just finished watching the most recent one a few minutes ago. We've got our new tivo controller, AA Batteries, tivo bill up to date. I think we're ready.
Tonight I made a delicious apple pie. I love the whole process of making a pie. It's SO domestic. I love rolling out the dough and I love peeling the apples. And the smell that comes out of the oven ..well, until the juices start overflowing and dripping into the bottom of the oven - that smell is gross - but before that... ahh it's fall and the baking season has begun. Tomorrow through Tuesday, I'll be in a whirlwind of flour. I've got this bakesale at work. I want to make sure the people on the night crew have some delicious and FRESH snacks to eat. We always get the short end of the stick, when it comes to parties or events. All the food is always left out and grody by the time it gets to us.
I'm feeling a bit better than I was last week. My headache has pretty much gone away, but I find that I'm still pretty sensitive to noises and bright lights. If I stay away from them, the headache stays gone. I've got this annoying, lingering sore throat though. Not enough to make you feel sick, but enough to annoy you and slow you down. And my appetite still sucks. I might have possibly lost a little bit of weight from eating like a bird for the last 2 weeks.
I'm making quite a bit of progress on the Clapotis. I've dropped 4 stitches, and finished one ball of (sealing) wax yarn. It's so pretty. I kind of would have liked this pattern wider and longer, but I only bought 4 hanks of yarn and when I checked their website, I saw that they were completely out of that kind of yarn. I wonder if they'll get it back soon though, cuz it's seriously, SOOO soft and nice to knit with. I have about 15 hanks of 'indigo' blue that were meant for a sweater for the cutest guy I know (jon, duh) but it's a little purple for a man sweater, so I might make myself something nice with it. Don't worry about him, I still have a bunch of yarn to make that sweater for him. I have a brownish color picked out, and I plan on using an orange or red zipper for the front of his sweater. I think it will look sweet.
I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my Hourglass sweater. Maybe if my poor eating keeps up, I'll lose enough boob to make the sweater longer and I can just sew the neckline and be done with it. Let's hope!
I just deleted my account. I keep getting the weirdest friends requests. Today I got one from some dude who's really into knee socks and pantyhose. WHY does he want to be my friend? Have I in some way indicated that I'm into knee socks and pantyhose? So I look at the dude's profile and he's just a nutter. Not to mention that some of his pictures are pornographic and all of the comments are too. Maybe I'm square but it just disgusted me. I'm also disgusted by the barely legal girls showing off their asses and trying to look all sexy. They've all got their sexual orientation as straight and everyone who comments has the same - yet they're all 'ooh you're so hot, ooh that picture is so hotttt' or they have that KeWl wacky way of spelling things like, 'u are teh hott!' because on the internet, everyone wants to be retarded.
i'm not in a good mood, if you couldn't tell. blah blah head still hurts complain whine blah blah. I tried to make a doctor's appt today but of course they are closed. I'm not working again today. I decided that my head hurts because I am sooo smart and my brain is way too big for my head. works for me.
Last night I watched the rest of Lost's first season. Awesome show. Kinda bummed that I'll have to wait a week for each episode now. While I watched last night, I started knitting Clapotis for myself. I'm making it out of merino from handpaintedyarn.com - the color is sealing wax and it's beautiful. I'm 4 repeats in and it's going pretty fast. I would take a picture but I don't have my camera.
In other news: TOMKAT are expecting a child! Uh oh. Hope ole stroke eye doesn't go through any sort of post partum depression! Tom would NOT be happy with that. I absolutely HATE Tom Cruise, like in a stomach turning, creeped out kind of way. He's just a little gross man. Oh, also I thought he couldn't have kids?? This is totally a conspiracy you know...
I seriously hate everything. I've felt this way since Thursday. My head hurts very bad and it's not let up since Thursday. It's making me a mean person. Should I stay home, take some tylenol, and relax? yes. Will I do that? No.
I finished my think pink project. It's about time, right? I started this guy in late Feb. I put it down for a few months, and picked it back up and finished knitting it in August before I went on vacation. I just finally sewed it up last night (I had lost an ear, you see, and Jon found it under the couch last weekend.)
This project is found in Knitted Toys by Fiona McTague. I didn't use the recommended needle/yarn size. I used size 6's with some pink Patons superwash wool I bought a couple years ago on ebay.
I don't really want to put any eyeballs or anything on this piggie. I think it's perfect without.
(Nov 19)
I've been asked to make a Christmas wish list, so here it is. Click on
Santa to view it!
(Dec 11)
I am unable to sleep, so I took time to make the blog archives work. of course, images that were on old yahoo server do not work anymore (read: anything before April 2005) so you'll have to use your imagination. Check the sidebar for a link if you're interested.
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(Nov 22)
There. I finally did it. Now go buy me stuff:)
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(Nov 7)Take note of the changes along the right sidebar. I've been reading blogs, and that, of course, means joining knitalongs!
However my next task (which will be my next announcement)
is to create a holiday wishlist, as there have been several people asking for one.
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(Aug 6) Hi guys, How cute is this: I have a new little niece!! Bryan and Mandie's little girl was born last Sunday (I think)
and in the spirit of utter ridiculousness, I give you, Madelyn dancing.
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(June
1) Here is a little picture. Obviously, these are BF5 lyrics.
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(May
23) Sup dudes? I was kinda bored last night, so I made a picture.
again. only tell me if you like it. I have a fragile ego.
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(May
14) Going through a wave of depression. Don't feel like
doing anything except artwork. Here are a couple
pictures I made. You may have seen them, since they're
meant for my websites. If you've seen them as background
images, excuse the tiling, I'm fixing it when I feel
like it.
if you like them, let me know. if you don't, keep it to
yourself.
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(April 28) Ok... I've been on hiatus. Bear with me and
my broken links and pictures while I move all my junk
around.
Life is good and I'm glad my site is working again.
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(Jan 11) Due to real life
pals/family complaining about how little real life
content there is in this journal, I'm going to make a
real effort to include that stuff, and not just knitting
stuff. I hope this pleases you guys.
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(Jan 10) Today is the
anniversary of my Grampa's death. We still miss you so
much.
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(Jan 4) Congratulations
Michael & Tiffany!!
Welcome to the family,
Tif!
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(Dec 30) Just two quick
notes today:
1. We've got another
completed Casey's Coat.
click to see Vito!
2. I'll be out of town
for about 3 weeks. My brother, Mike, is getting married!
After that I'm going to be house sitting for my mom
while she is out of town. This will not have an affect
on you or my blogging, I just felt like sharing.
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(Dec 2) My brother has
been making me some pretty cool knitting charts. I think
they're mighty awesome and I'm trying to figure out a
project I can use them for. They're pdf files, except
the first one (which is actually not his design, it's
the work of someone on myspace.com) so go ahead and have
at them. If he makes many more charts, I'll disable the
links and offer the chart patterns for a small fee via
paypal, because, after all, it is his art work and he
deserves compensation!
click the images to view full sized charts: 2nd & 3rd images ?2004 R. Wuebker
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(Nov 28)My little sister is a knittin' fool. We shopped
all over for some good needles for her. She's been using
these kids plastic-y needles that I find to be really
uncomfortable and annoying. We tried some aluminum
needles but they were too slick and long. We finally
settled on some Clover Bamboo needles and from what I
have heard, she likes them the best. She's working on a
lavender scarf. I'll have my mom take a pic so I can
post it here.
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(Nov 28) I'm back! Christmas Knitting and yarn stash
enhancement is in full effect in this house. There's a
new(?) Knitting/Fabric store in the town my mom lives
in. It's called Sew Krazy. image is property of sew-krazy.com
They are currently squeezed in a tiny location just
chock full of amazing stuff! They have a whole shelf of
Kaffe Fasset fabrics, which you know I loved. They
had lots of yarn by Rowan and Brown Sheep. They didn't
have any Debbie Bliss. The shop is working on expanding
in a new location, equipped with a beautiful fireplace
(My mom and I peeked through a hole in the door) and
it's HUGE. This place was great and there's a cafe
called Muddy Waters next door. So this place will be
perfect to sit down, relax, drink coffee, and knit by
the fireplace when I go out to visit for 3 weeks in
January. The building is also really beautiful and
contains many other interesting shops. Check it out if
you're ever nearby.
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(Nov 18)Last year for Christmas, Mr. Handsome gave me an
EZ Stir. If you haven't got a clue what an easy-stir
is, (consider yourself lucky) it's a device that
attaches to your pots and pans and stirs your sauces for
you! Ingenious! I have still not taken the EZ Stir out
of its package. This year, I thought I'd make it easy on
my husband and anyone else who wishes to shower me with
gifts.
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(Nov 17)Looking for unique cards to send out this
Holiday season?
Check out
Loobylu
and Darling
Studio for some fabulous and unique holiday cards.
