Hey dudes, what's up? I'm doing really well. Devan's back and I missed her so much. My job is not so sucky this week. In fact, I'm putting together a preettty awesome full page ad for the State Fair. I'm half finished with it and I'm crossing my fingers that the ad reps will like it. I'm kind of going through a creative drought though. I guess when things are going good, I don't really have any inspiration to do or make anything.
The other day my friend and I were talking about my inability to let (for lack of a better word) enemies just be enemies. I really do have a hard time with it. I hate when I think of someone or am reminded of someone and I get a sick kind of feeling in my stomach. I hate having regrets and feeling like I wasted my precious time on someone unworthy. So I always end up trying to make the situation better. But I am finally realizing that there are just some people who are going to give me that sick feeling, and there are some people who I'm just not going to be ok with. I will have some regrets in my life time, and hopefully I'll learn from the mistakes I've made. Overall, I'm happy, aside from those twinges of nausea that I get from time to time: )
I had a really good dinner tonight from Dominick's in Newton. Deliciouso, but I smell like garlic from the Garlic Knots we ordered. I want to have a cookout thingie this weekend and invite some friends over. I already invited Jessie, and I'm going to try to get Jon to invite some people. Well it's bedtime now, I just thought I'd update you since I've been away.
I have been pretty busy the last few days. I got my little Devan back. SHe doesn't call me momma or mommy anymore. I'm "Mom" now. I also got an AWESOME cd in the mail, courtesy of Jen. It's really cool. Really.
My mom is bringing Dev back today. She, Evan, Cady, and Rick are gonna stay for a couple days and we're gonna go to the beach I guess.
I can't wait to see Dev but I am not excited about cleaning up my house. Jon cleaned the bathroom last night which is aweeesomeee since it's my very least favorite chore. But I have to do everything else. My mom's gonna be so disappointed in me. I haven't planted any flowers this summer and my deck is boring and drab. :(
Hi there. I'm watching the Daily Show, which is funny. There was an episode the other night, where they did a peice on Cape May... I laughed alot. I love Ed Helms. Hey, wanna see what I got??
So I got some sock yarn. Isn't that Shepherd Sport (flame) lovely? Oh and what's that behind the yarn? That's my red quilt that...hm... I might finish one of these days.
Jon got himself Dance Dance Revolution for Father's Day. I haven't played it yet but when I do, I swear to you that I will dance like I've never danced before.
Got a date tonight. Gonna go eat dinner and see Batman Whatever.
I wish Batman were still like the OLD batman with Adam West because I loveeee that Batman. alas, I'm sure I'll enjoy Christian Bale in this because as I told you I saw the Machinist the other day, and dude seriously weighed 120 lbs. He was so disgustingly skinny I couldn't pay attention to anything else. So hopefully this film will wipe my mind clean of that imagry.
I hear her voice, in the mornin’ hours she calls to me
The radio reminds me of my home far a-way
And drivin’ down the road I get a feeling’
That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday
We're going to get Devan today. I'm up very early because the last 2 weeks have really screwed up my sleep cycles. Jon fell asleep on one side of the couch, and I fell asleep on the other at around 11pm, and I had a bad dream and woke up at 2:30 or so. I laid in bed for about an hour thinking about knitting, but that didn't help, so I took a shower and thought about fonts for awhile. Now I'm squeaky clean and I'm really thirsty.
I don't want to wake Jon up yet, but it would be awesome if we could go to Ohio like, now. I'd get to do more stuff if I had a couple more hours there.
From time to time I see something that is just so great that an ache washes over my body. Do you people ever look at Illustration Friday? If you don't, you're certainly missing out. There's one participant who I just adore. It's like visual prozac
I am going away for real now (you know, deathbed and all of that junk.)
Hi, I'm peggy and I don't sleep anymore at all! I've been browsing through ebay for the last couple hours, looking at yarn, and typing in names and stuff to see if I could find users I know. I found a few people by chance.
Jon said a shitty thing to me tonight, involving ummm gratification of a sexual sort, and a certain European country which was invaded on Sept. 1st 1939 by 1.8 million German troops... I'm pretty steamed about it. I warned him that I was going to mention this on my blog. This is a common threat I give. "o-m-g I am so blogging about this later and then you'll be sorry!" (yes I spell out omg because it makes this girl at work laugh when I do.)
maybe I should stay up all night..er day, and just go to work and be tired tonight. that would make the most sense really, since I'd like to make my deck look beautiful and I'd like to return a skirt that I bought because it isn't the correct size, and since I'm dying. Oh I forgot to mention this? Yea, I'm dying. I give myself hmm maybe 24 hours to live. I cant believe this is how I'm spending my last moments in my um, earthly form. I should be out getting drunk like nuts and dancing on tables in my underthingies. but yea, I'm dying. I wont get into details because it's boring. so come to my funeral, and make sure someone plays Bridge over troubled water because that would be pretty dramatic, right?
*Oh, apologies to Fed Ex. I mean, you still suck for 'losing' my packages but at least someone found them and delivered them. However now the Gap sucks for sending me a size 4 skirt because *cough* i'm not a size 4... I mean I'm flattered, really, but being flattered doesn't get me dressed for work, ok?
gahh for a minute I was starting to get pretty sleepy and then my mind wandered and I thought about zombies and I got all excited and happy and now I'm wide awake again. Curse you zombies!
Did you see that the little old dude who had the record for being married for 80 yrs passed away? Isn't that sad? He was 105, but still, his poor little old wife must be so heartbroken. I can't believe those people were married for 80 years. I couldn't even stay married for 1 year without mucking it up.
Both of my packages were lost. I paid extra to have them overnighted and they were both lost. The driver says he dropped them on my porch but I was here all day and Lily didn't even make a peep. I'm not even sure what to do about this. I'm afraid that I'm out a lot of money. Oh damn:(
I'm not at work because my head hurts. I took some meds for it but now I have to go out to the store, and I guess I have to go to a couple OTHER stores and get a skirt or something cuz I have no nice clothes. I'm so irritated people!
I have this Lisa Loeb song in my head. Sometimes I just chant it really fast, over and over again when I'm really aggitated:"do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? do you sleep? do you count sheep anymore?" I've been doing this all afternoon and I'm really starting to annoy myself.
CRUUUUDDD I was so excited about those skirts darnit. let's all cross our fingers. I talked to fed ex and they're so stupid. THey cannot discuss what I do next with me because of security reasons or some dumb crap like that.. I asked them who I should discuss it with then? Any ideas anyone?
it's pretty hard to sleep all night. I can't believe I'm still awake. I tried watching tv. I tried straightening up the family room. I tried knitting. I did some shopping online. I tried taking a long hot shower. I'm wide awake.
I smell awesome, my hair looks great, and I'm ready to go. If only the shops were open this time of day. I bought a couple pretty skirts.
The first one is from old navy, and the second is from the gap.
If only I had some adorable shoes... there are some cute turquoise mocs at payless but i dont know.
I actually haven't got a whole lot to say lately. I've been doing tons of sleeping lately and that's it.
Tomorrow I have to go shopping for some clothes. I wish I had a friend to go with, so I could say "how ugly is this?" because usually I buy stuff and I'm like "this is totally cute" and then someone tells me it's ugly. I have bad taste in everything. I used to think I had awesome taste and everyone else around me was just sad and being kept in the dark and stuff... but no, it's me.
hm. I'm not tired at all and I really don't have anything to do. I guess I could eat tortilla chips and salsa and drink iced tea while watching some tivo'd junk. I think I've got some daily show episodes and possibly an episode of Medium.
I miss little Doodle. My mom sent me some videos of her today, and then I found some videos of her that I took with my camera phone where she's singing the 'mommy is cute' song. Oh if only hot dudes with tattoos and scruffy faces ... or like, my husband.... could see me the way she sees me.
I don't like sunday's for several reasons. The first is that I work all by myself and that sucks. The second is that I tend to waste the entire day sleeping and doing other stupid things like updating my website, staring at walls, looking at magazines. I torture myself with fantasies of calling off work and going back to sleep.
Well, it's time for me to hop in the shower and get the hell out of here.
Tonight's date involved greasy food and willowbrook mall. Both of us left feeling sick to our stomach's.
i have nothing to talk about. I am starting to really understand that I screwed a lot of stuff up in the last few months. stuff I can't take back. I feel like an idiot. Also, I missed my grandma's birthday party today. Everyone was there. Even Devan. I miss all the good stuff.
I just LOVE Jen's Mix Cd cover. I am kicking myself for not joining the first mix exchange, but I definitely want to be part of the second one.
Tonight was ok. Didn't see Cinderella man. We went to eat. I had mojitos and a monte cristo. There was a cute baby next to us and I smiled and made faces at him. Next I headed toward Clifton, and when my date fell asleep, I headed even further, toward the Hudson River. I thought it would be nice to go there. Instead we got in an argument, made up, went to Quick Check, and got a slushy. The details end there.
I just watched about 6 episodes of the Daily show, which, as I've mentioned before, is the only thing that puts me in a good mood lately. I was knitting these socks... they're cute. They're green with a picot trim along the top, and orange heels and toes. maybe I'll finish them someday and post a picture.
I miss my daughter, but I will say, the break is nice. It's like a vacation without leaving my house. Tomorrow I'm gonna get down to business and actually CLEAN her room, and try to clean mine as well. And if I get done within a reasonable time, I'll go to Ikea in Paramus and buy some junk.
Unfortunately the only theatre that's playing cinderella man late enough for us to eat dinner and see a movie, is in clifton. So we might be going there for the 10:40 showing.
So last night work sucked. I was all by myself, a banner I slaved over (slaved, I tell you) didn't run, and I didn't get to eat dinner til about 11pm. So I went to mcdonalds because that was the only place open in Newton. I got a chocolate milkshake. It was chocolate with bits of strawberry in it. I didn't have time to get a new one but it was pretty sick and I felt like I wias ingesting guts of some sort, even though they tasted like strawberry. Who knows. Maybe guts taste like strawberry??? I wouldn't know.
ummm Today I caught up on Daily Show episodes and worked on a couple projects. I also cleaned up my family room. It was crazy messy. Aaaand then I took a nap on the couch.
I want to go to the movies tonight, or out to dinner. Someone please take me out. I am so bored.
I found my Godzilla shirt and I'm wearing it to work tonight. I also found my green sweater, but I haven't decided if I should wear it or not. I smell awesome. <3 u Givenchy <3 <3
I'm all ready to go. Perhaps I'll get to work on time today.
We might let Devan stay in Ohio an extra week. If so, I am going to go to Ikea this weekend and buy some sort of storage for her room. I miss her though, so I don't know if I can do that. She won't talk on the phone to me! She just says 'bye, love you!' and runs off when I ask her questions. She's very busy and having a blast.
I'm anxious to go to work and see how they changed my beautiful ad and made it mediocre. haha. It's not that great, it's just a little edgy and stylish for the newspaper. Who knows, maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised to see it get approved. (it runs tonight.) sometimes cool ads slip in there without anyone noticing. Sometimes ridiculous ads slip by... Last thursday I was making this ad for a local Bulky Waste collection day, and I was really bored so I made the whole thing like a "wanted, dead or alive" western poster, complete with woodcut borders. I stopped at adding tumbleweed and lasso art, but it was definitely a silly ad. I was surprised to open up sunday's paper and see it in there.
Do you think Walmart sells that new Ben Folds cd?? I want to get it but I don't have time to go in any other direction before work.
I officially hate politics. I'm just joking, I just hate conservatives. Tonight, as you may know, was the NJ Gubernatorial thing... Which means our editors have a deadline extension (they never can make their deadlines anyways) which means that I end up staying at work late. I hate photoshopping pictures of Republicans. I am so tempted to do mean, awful things to them, but instead I make them look pretty. Guys I love John Corzine and I write him letters all the time, and I really hope that that Forrester douchebag doesn't beat him :(
I made the most adorable ad tonight for the Father's Day contest that the paper is having. It's got this 50's dad teaching a little boy how to swing a baseball bat, excellent typography, and mad style, yo. (tooting my own horn).
Jon brought me a slushy from Dairy Queen, which was surprising, considering the way I screamed at him, and drove like a maniac down rt 23. I was so angry with him... 6 months of hell, and still he has come to solid conclusions and neither have I, for that matter. The situation is weird, but the DQ was pretty awesome. He and Jessie talked about strip bars and lapdances and I worked on my precious ad. It was a good night.
Work was hot today. AC Broke. peggy=tired. miss devan.
I've got to get up early and take Jonnyhandsome to Wayne. maybe I'll clean or something when I get home... or maybe I'll go to the spa and work out! there's a novel idea. Or maybe I'll go buy flowers and make my deck into a 'backyard oasis' so I can hang out out there sipping mint juleps all summer. Doggingtons has to go to the Vet so she can go get boarded this weekend.
i totally missed a doctors appt today. I completely forgot about it. Oh well. I don't really feel like talking about my problems with anyone right now. Things are pretty cool. i've been feeling mad creative and awesome and in control of my uhhh destiny or whatever. so stir the pot, we will not.
The new mac at work now has adobe CS 2 on it so basically it's everything I ever wanted now and I can't keep my grubby paws off of it.
Last night I worked alone, like most Sunday nights... and it sucked. I had so much work to do, and in the midst of it all, my computers kept crashing, quark kept misbehaving, and the image setters downstairs kept pretending to be out of film, or printing out blanks...the phone rang off the hook. It's a good thing I didn't buy that junior rifle I saw at walmart in wooster. I can't believe they sell guns at walmart. like...... we have bears.... and we don't have guns at our local walmart. anyways I wanted to buy a rifle because I thought it would be fun to sit on my deck with it. But on second thought it's not a good idea. I'm the kind of person who gets a container of pepper spray, and sprays it on the wall to see what it does. I can only imagine the mess I'd make with a rifle.
We're back from Ohio. we made excellent time. Jon drove the whole way while we listened to Ben Folds Five and then some book called "Prey" by that dude who wrote Jurasic Park (I think that's his name). I slept through some of the book but jon brought me up to speed on what was happening, so I found myself listening instead of sleeping, and now I'm sleepy and I miss my little sidekick. I just talked to my mom and I guess Dev is gonna go run through the sprinkler. I bet she's having a great time out there and she won't want to come back next weekend.
We had fun last night. Went out to dinner with family, then we went shopping and Jon bought some funny stuff. Then kt came over and we went out and ate again!
I just got out of the shower and I have to go to work in 3 hours. Jon already left because he had to work this afternoon too. I'm not sure if he's spending the night here or if I won't see him again until Friday when we go back to get Devan. :( who knows.
today my fine ass will be in Ohio. Judging from my clock and the pace at which I am getting ready, it will be late afternoon before I get there. I may have been a bit overly ambitious with my ideas of hanging out with everyone I ever knew.. but I'm sure there's at least time to do something with KT and MAYBE I can visit my tiny little sister, Abby to give her the little outfit I bought her in April. I can at least give it to someone to give her.
Today Jon was trying to wake me up and I was like half asleep dreaming I was designing some sort of ad and it was really awesome. I'm eating cinnamon life with a towel wrapped around me, so I better get going.
oh yah, ps. no cinderella man last night. Got back from dinner too late :( I did watch some funny Daily Show episode's I had tivo'd. I didn't watch the apprentice, but oen of the episodes I watched last night had Bo Bice or whatever his name is, and boy is that dude a dork. I'm glad he didn't win. Ok. See you later.
Today is a busy day. I've been shopping all day at the liquer store. not really but I did go to the liquer store. I am just fascinated by all of the bottles and labels. Today I bought some Brut Champagne and some orange flavored vodka. This, like all of the other alcohol in our house, will probably sit in the refrigerator until one of Jon's friends comes over and drinks it.
Tonight we're going out to dinner at Giovanni's, and then Jon and I are going to see Cinderella Man.
Tomorrow bright and early we're going to Ohio. I wish I could stay longer, but it's only an overnight trip to drop Devan off. Hopefully we'll get to do something fun tomorrow night for a little while. And hopefully I get to see everyone I want to see.
We have no food in our fridge, and I don't really see the point in buying anymore, especially with Devan gone. I'm not here to cook, so why spend the money? We have some apples and oatmeal and maybe some rice and now alcohol.. I think that's enough to sustain life for a week.
A few weeks ago, I bought this cute little black nightgown-y, slip-y thing, with a matching black robe. It's lightweight for summer, and I love it.
I look at myself in the mirror and I wish it were acceptable to wear this to work because I look great in it. Totally hot sexy lady. ...ok I won't go that far, but I do look quite nice in it.
Why am I not at the movies?? Well I just couldn't justify driving to and from Clifton today. I think maybe Dev and i will go tomorrow, or we'll just wait, and she can go see it in Ohio with Evan and Cady. I spilled the beans about our Ohio plans and she's pretty psyched about it. She has her reservations about missing Mama (that's me haha) and she was like "i don't know, mama. I have never done this before."
I gave you all the love I got
I gave you more than I could give
Gave you love
I gave you all that I have inside
And you took my love, you took my love
Didn't I tell you, what I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you all that I got to give baby
I gave you all the love I got
I gave you more than I could give
Gave you love
I gave you all that I have inside
And you took my love, you took my love
I keep crying
I keep trying, for you
There's nothing like you and I, baby
This is no ordinary love, no ordinary love
This is no ordinary love, no ordinary love
When you came my way
You brightened everyday
With your sweet smile
Didn't I tell you, what I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you all that I got to give baby
I keep crying
I keep trying for you
There's nothing like you and I, baby
Yea, this journal's reached new lows. Posting Sade lyrics...
I finally feel better so tomorrow Dev and I are going to see Madagascar at Clifton Commons which is far as hell but it's the only one playing the movie before 2pm. Anything after 1:30 is cutting it too close.
I just ate a lot of macaroni salad and I smell like an onion. I'm a big fan of potato salads and macaroni salads... but I don't like the "CRUNCH" that everyone puts in it. I don't like raw onions or celery... But I'm too lazy to sort through and pick all that stuff out so now my breath could probably kill children and small animals.
Did I mention that I want a new MAC???? Please buy me one, thx.
guys I had the worst night ever. I was so pathetic. I was really really sick tonight at work, and I threw up twice and i passed out in the bathroom for a couple minutes. I'm sure I was a sorry sight. I was whimpering and sweating and I was so dizzy I had to sit down in the bathroom stall. I'm so glad no one was around I would have been so embarrassed. I feel a little bit ok right now but i'm going to try to sleep and hopefully i will wake up feeling good.
the plan for tomorrow is to take Devan to see Madagascar!! I hope I am not still sick. Devan is going away this weekend, did I tell you? She's going to be in Ohio for a WHOLE week. I don't know what I'll do without the little superhero around.. :(
Oh well, I'm gonna go lay down and be lulled to sleep by the sounds of my dog's snoring. She has the best, most comforting snores. They put me right to sleep.
(Nov 19)
I've been asked to make a Christmas wish list, so here it is. Click on
Santa to view it!
(Dec 11)
I am unable to sleep, so I took time to make the blog archives work. of course, images that were on old yahoo server do not work anymore (read: anything before April 2005) so you'll have to use your imagination. Check the sidebar for a link if you're interested.
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(Nov 22)
There. I finally did it. Now go buy me stuff:)
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(Nov 7)Take note of the changes along the right sidebar. I've been reading blogs, and that, of course, means joining knitalongs!
However my next task (which will be my next announcement)
is to create a holiday wishlist, as there have been several people asking for one.
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(Aug 6) Hi guys, How cute is this: I have a new little niece!! Bryan and Mandie's little girl was born last Sunday (I think)
and in the spirit of utter ridiculousness, I give you, Madelyn dancing.
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(June
1) Here is a little picture. Obviously, these are BF5 lyrics.
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(May
23) Sup dudes? I was kinda bored last night, so I made a picture.
again. only tell me if you like it. I have a fragile ego.
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(May
14) Going through a wave of depression. Don't feel like
doing anything except artwork. Here are a couple
pictures I made. You may have seen them, since they're
meant for my websites. If you've seen them as background
images, excuse the tiling, I'm fixing it when I feel
like it.
if you like them, let me know. if you don't, keep it to
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