The girl with kaleidoscope eyes

11.27.2003

Well Happy Thanksgiving, ya'll! I wish I was at my mom's! It's been awhile.

I've been sick, yet I've managed to accomplish quite a bit this week (and it's only Thursday) and I'm surprised and proud of myself. I did 1 long paper in 1 day. I got an A on a test that I didn't even study/ read any of the material for, I wrecked the curve in my spanish class by doing really well on my test, and uhhh... I think that's probably it.

Tonight Jon, Dev, and I went to the mall. I had to beg Devan for about 45 minutes to agree to go. She was insisting that there were monsters at the store (and they were eating all the donuts.) So we went to the mall and I found a coat I kind of liked. I also saw this jacket that I liked, but I didn't buy it because I didn't see my size. I can buy it online though, so I probably will. I also bought a book. It's adorable. It's called Knit Mittens, and it's a book shaped like a big mitten. I am in love with it even though I can't do anything with it right now. Actually, truthfully, I am in love with this book called Baby Knits. If I had seen this book 6 months ago, I would have gone crazy about it but Devan is too big for all of the patterns in it. I might buy it anyways so I can lovingly run my fingers over the pages and fantasize about having more cute babies to knit for (you know, since I knit so much for the one I have...)

Well, I better make good use of my time while Jon's playing halo. I'm bound and determined to get my scarf done over the holiday!

posted @ 12:56 AM

11.23.2003

So I wrote my entire paper this afternoon. It's ten pages long, and is surprisingly intelligent and coherent. I've never used a spellchecker before on this, as you can probably tell, but tonight I'm feeling groggy so I am going to use it on 'coherent'.

I'm a little disappointed in myself. I didn't get all of my homework done and I am tired of putting it off. I have 100 pages to read for history (AGAIN - I SWORE I'D NEVER DO THIS AGAIN!) and some major studying to do in Spanish and something else, I can't remember. I got the basic stuff that I need to take care of, like my Spanish test, done. So I can go to sleep without feeling guilty.

My scarf is officially taking forever. I tried to make some progress while watching Carnivale tonight, but I ran out of yarn after a dark gray stripe and was too engrossed in the show to go upstairs and get some more, so I cuddled with Jon for awhile. I'm sure he was pretty surprised to have me all to himself without knitting needles in my hands. They're like my 11th and 12th fingers. I swear it! My scarf is actually about 3 feet long, but I was looking at the Urban Outfitters catalog online today and there are some really massive scarves in there and I want mine to be really long like those. Also, in the U.O. catalog there were a pair of knitted mary-jane slippers and they are just about the cutest thing ever. I would attempt to make them myself but I have no patience so I will probably drop the 10 dollars for instant gratification's sake.

I need to make or find myself a long strap for my bag. I bought this cute grayish bluish bag from Old Navy a couple months ago and it's cute and cool and big enough for my sketchbook and my notes and my purse thingies and a novel so I'd like to use it in place of my leather bag, but the problem is that it has 2 small straps on either side and no long strap. There are also D rings on both sides so I would imagine just about anything would go with it. I should just make something myself since I'm a creative lady, but I have way too many other things on the list. I am backed up until at least Christmas.

Because Martha Stewart Living is having trouble finding its way to my house this month, Real Simple is my new favorite magazine. Actually it's not, but I thought maybe this month's Living might get jealous and hurry the hell up if it heard me saying that.

Devan's coat and hats and boots are being held hostage at the post office. I forgot to get them Friday and Saturday. As long as we don't have some kind of freak snowstorm I am pretty sure we're in the clear for tomorrow. I am kind of anxious to see the little hats though. One is white, I think with big flowers poking out of the top. I think it's safe to say that Devan will hate me someday for making her wear all the things I wish I could wear (I just couldn't tolerate the stares from strangers). Also, she's much cuter so she pulls it off way better than I could hope to.

Jon rearranged our bedroom today, which isn't saying much. There are two pieces of furniture in there, and a dog crate. But I guess he said the room looks bigger? I guess I'll go see what he's talking about now, since I've run out of things to talk about.

posted @ 11:35 PM

11.22.2003

Today I went to a couple craft things. One was a craft fair at Long Pond school in Andover. Marlene Wynne, who is the mother of Jon's friend Jason, is a crafter and her stuff is great. I didn't have enough money to buy any of her stuff, but I did get a red crackly hurricane candle holder and at another shop I bought a red tin tub with a cinnamon candle in it. I bought a couple other things but I can't remember.

Tonight I made a little candle holder out of a chef boyardee ravioli can. I poked a bunch of holes in the shape of a snowflake and stuck a candle inside. It's actually really pretty and twinkly. I was thinking I might make a bunch out of smaller cans and attatch them together with wire to make some sort of pretty thing... I don't know.

We're going to have chinese food in a few minutes, if the place ever puts their phone back on the hook.

Devan's sitting in her high chair in UNDERWEAR! and she looks so cute. I am hoping she doesn't pee in her pants.

I have a bunch of homework to do tonight. Gahhhhh! I am so sick of homework! How am I ever going to finish knitting my scarf if I keep getting homework. (I know, my priorities are right where they should be.) I have a spanish test to finish, a spanish journal to finish, math research problems, math homework, history paper to finish and type, history reading 60-90 pages, and last but most important, a child psych research paper to do. I haven't even started it and it's due monday night. What is my problem?

mmm chinese food is good!

posted @ 7:09 PM

11.21.2003

Today has been a relatively productive day thus far. Basically what that means is that I've managed to clean Devan's room and the kitchen and sort of straighten the dining/living room. Lily has once again eaten her own poop, so she's been spending much of the day in her crate. It is really sucking that she keeps doing that. I'd like to have her up here hanging out with me but she just can't because poop breath/germ slobber and toddlers don't really mix well.

Last night Jon, Devan and I went to the Sussex Queen (the mother of all Jersey Diners) and I got chicken tenders which were totally disappointing. I tried to bite into the first and i couldn't even bite through it. I ripped it open and there was NO chicken inside, it was basically just a chicken shaped peice of breading. I thought it was some sort of fluke thing - but no, the same thing happened with each chicken tender. I didn't feel like complaining because I'd already eaten a bite of Jon's tuna melt and half of Devan's grilled cheese so I was quite satisified and plus I had my own french fries to take care of. Next time I will order something else.

I took a political compass test today. The questions are pretty skewed but I landed in the company of folks like Nelson Mandella, the Dalai Lama and Ghandi, so I guess that says something good about me.

I am waiting for Jon to come home, don't know for sure if he is or not. I need to run to Newton to pick up some books at the school so I can try really hard to write a research paper in 2 days. I honestly don't want to quit my child psych class. I've got about 4 weeks left and I have an A in the class. It's just a matter of not having any sources, and any time to write this paper.

My history prof. is reading a page of my cubism research paper right now, just to make sure I'm headed in the right direction. I hope I am because I am for the most part finished with the paper. I have to talk a little more about Picasso before I can type it up and proofread it but that is like a half hour of research and writing. No big deal. Last semester I did a research paper on Islam and I focused way too much on the origins and the religion of Islam and did very little on the historical impact of it, so I didn't do as well as I should have. Like, my prof. said it was an excellent paper but it didn't cover exactly what she was looking for. Oh well. I wrote it all on a sunday afternoon, so it's not like I invested that much time and effort into it.

I really had wanted to go to Ohio next week for Thanksgiving, but I don't think I will be. My vet's boarding is all filled up and I would imagine the rest of the places around here are filled up too. I don't want to bring her because she's a pain in the butt, and it's too much stress right now.

Last night at dinner, Jon was wearing his company tee-shirt and I kept catching glances, even the waitress kind of squinted to read the logo. And I said to Jon, "maybe you should have worn a different shirt." It never occured to me that these random people have no idea who Jon is and have no idea that he is not in any way involved with what's going on w/ his company. I don't feel like talking about that anymore.

posted @ 1:36 PM

11.17.2003

Feel good news stories: Filibustering a filibuster!

we confirmed 98 percent of President Bush's judges ...and all we got was this lousy T-shirt

Ok, those stories don't make me feel good. Notice that the republicans are "stopping Democratic bills on issues like a higher minimum wage. " Ah, yes. God forbid the millions of us who can barely scrap enough together to get by might get a little more than that while these old wrinkly white men (minus barbara boxer <3<3, of course) make hundreds of thousands of dollars a year. Yes, yes. Down with more money! Up with overtime restrictions! Up with killing brown people! This world is sooo screwed up, and the more you learn about history the more it sickens you to see the same old shit happening every day in this 'modern, civilized' world.

And what is up with Rush Limbaugh? Can someone give me a reason (besides the fact that he's rich and famous and conservative) why he is not in jail (you know, since he's said before that drug addicts should be locked up)?? These are strange times we're in folks.< / politicking >

So, it's monday afternoon and I have yet to break out the books and get to work. I have a child psych test tonight that I am prepared for. However, I don't want to take it and I want to quit the class because I just hate going and I don't feel like going anymore. Also, I have a paper due and I don't want to do it and I haven't started it yet. What's a girl to do?

History is becoming my favorite class. I love it so much and yet it disturbs me so deeply. I don't want to get into it on here because I am not nearly as eloquent as I'd need to be in order to sound as smart as I'd need to be to make anyone see my point..

I just ate some pasta which is kind of making me sick to my guts, and I have some hawaiian punch in a frozen mug. I am enjoying the peace and quiet right now and I'm trying to decide what I'm gonna do tonight (about class).

posted @ 2:54 PM

11.16.2003

Last night we stayed up until 5 am. Joe left at 4 something, and it was just crazy. I am really tired right now but I am kind of psyched cuz I did some interesting things today. We slept til about 10 am (even Devan!) and then I woke up and did some sitting around, and then I went tom Michael's (the craft store).

I left Michael's with high hopes and lots of energy and $116 less than I came in with. (I also left with a huge headache and anxiety because of how much money I spent, but this is a posi post).

My goal for this weekend was to learn how to bind a book. It was actually a lot easier than I thought it would be. The first thing I did was make a tiny little test book out of a peice of a cardboard box (the covers) and a few sheets of printer paper. It turned out just fine, so I kind of wish I'd made it a little snazzier. The second book I made is a blue and white fabric covered coptic bound sketch book. It's not that great, but the thing is, I was watching that Johnny Cash tribute and all of my positive feelings were going away. The binding looks wonderful though, so I am partially pleased.

Also I drew a kind of nice picture, but I'm not showing you because I might use it when I redo my website (if I redo my website).

Now for the rest of the weekend I have a scarf to finish, 3 days worth of history to finish, and some spanish prepositions to study. I think I'm dropping my child psych class even though I like it. I haven't even started my paper in this class and I just don't have the time to start it before it's due (monday before Thanksgiving). I have too much other stuff to do.

Oh well. I better get to bed or I won't get anything done tomorrow.

posted @ 1:26 AM

11.14.2003

I just had this surge of LOVE for Jon. He's sitting on the floor playing video games with his friend Joe 'who the hell is Johnny Cash' Cusack. He (Jon) iswearing his adorable glasses and he is being very nice to me tonight. Also, I think part of why I loved him just then was because I was excited about this yarn store in Denville that I just discovered and I read him the address and he said "I think I know where that is" so I will probably go there tomorrow or possibly next weekend since I'm kind of busy with a scarf right now.

I saw this cute toggle jacket I want from the Gap but I am not sure how it will look on me so Jon said I could order that and also the peacoat from Lands End and take back whichever I like less, since I am impossible to shop with and I guess this would be the easiest way to do it. I just am so weird about this. For some reason I get very nervous when I want to drop some cash on something good. I am always afraid I'm making the wrong choice and it's only a coat.

We ate Burger King tonight. Our food choices this week haven't been all that wonderful. except I have been eating a lot of vegetables. I am feeling really sick right now. Flashes of hot and then flashes of chills. I have a really bad headache and my stomache hurts but I think my stomache hurts from dinner.

I'm about 16 inches into my gray on gray scarf. I can't wait to be done so I can start on something else. : )

posted @ 11:41 PM

Hi, I'm Peggy and I'm pretty on the inside and the outside!

I just ate cauliflower. I'm a big fan of cauliflower and broccoli.

I have a lot of school work to do this weekend and Jon is talking about going out tonight. Yea. I don't think so. I have a child psych test on Monday night and two or three quizzes as well.

I don't really feel like updating this right now but if I go longer than about 8 days without an update my brother e-mails me and tells me to get on the ball. So, you know, I can't let down my public.

Lily and frolicked around in the wind and leaves this afternoon. She was running really fast and trying to chase all of the leaves and she was jumping into huge piles of leaves. I think if she could laugh, she would have been cracking up. I know I was. She's a perdy girl. But she has the worst gas today. gross...........

I don't have anything to talk about today other than the fact that last night's ER really disturbed me. The whole Bob Newhart shooting himself in the head thing really bothered me. I liked his character a lot.

I'm currently knitting a grey on gray striped stockinette stitch scarf. it's double thick on circular needles and it's totally hot, if you were wondering how i felt about it. Now I just need to buy a coat so that the rest of my body will be as warm as my neck this winter.

bye!

posted @ 5:45 PM

11.06.2003

ER is on. I am flipping through Stitch N Bitch and there's a sweater I want to knit but I don't have enough good yarn for it. I want to start knitting a scarf for myself and possibly a hat, but I promised myself that I won't touch anything until my homework is DONE. I did my math and some spanish this morning/afternoon but then I quit to play 'secretary' trying to locate a million different insurance policies. yay.

Ok, Pratt just told Luca to go back to africa, and then Luca said 'maybe you should go to africa' and pratt said ' i know you did not just say that to me' and I laughed way louder than I should have.

Jon's on his way home from the Nets game. I am not sure if they won. I did encourage him today to do the wave but something is telling me he didn't do it. It's cold in my living room and I don't want to mess anything up by getting a blanket so I'm suffering.

I love buying things. I want a coat. I want pants. I want shoes from 9 west that I saw online today. they are so cute that I can't stand it. I also want to buy all kinds of little gadgets and a red teapot. ..............Ok I'm going to turn this computer off now.

posted @ 10:59 PM

11.05.2003

I'm watching 'I love the 80's (strikes back)' and I just want to (again) proclaim my love for Michael Ian Black. 'because it's Sooo protruding' We were watching the part about doing the wave in stadiums. I am encouraging Jon to start at least 1 wave at the NJ Nets game tomorrow night. I hope he'll make me proud.

I had appx. 15 minutes of sleep last night, actually it was this morning at 5:30 in the morning. I dozed off. When I woke up I felt like I was dying. My whole body was shaking and i felt super anxious and thought I was going to throw up. I'm happy to say though, that this feeling wore off after I completed my history test and not a moment sooner. yay. Yea, so I'm pretty sure this test was not an A test.

I've made a vow to myself. I am going to finish all of my homework and work on wrapping up my research papers before I even touch my knitting needles. This is really hard, but this is the way it has to be. I hope my needles understand.

i will have to write more lated because i have the worst headache ever since I have been awake since tuesday at 5:30 in the morning.

posted @ 9:21 PM