The girl with kaleidoscope eyes

2.26.2002

it's tuesday. my grandma died sometime in the middle of the night (last night/this morning). It stinks. I still really haven't dealt with being sad about my grampa dying. and when I think about it, I really never dealt with my grandma linette dying, and all this death keeps making me think about it. I was on my way home from the mall the other day and I was listening to the radio and some song reminded me of my grandma linette dying and I just started crying. Sunday night I was laying in bed and it sort of hit me that my grampa died ( i don't know why my reaction time is so delayed) and I just laid there and cried until I fell asleep. This is weird. all the dying can stop anytime now....

posted @ 7:42 AM

2.18.2002

Hi. I'm coming to you live from Jon's parents house. This weekend Jon and I went exploring and found ourselves in Warwick NY.*which really isn't all that far from our home, but I've never been there and it was cool. * There are lots of humongus houses in Warwick. It makes me sad when we go look at nice houses. because then we always end up going back home to our apartment.

I finally took my Christmas tree down. It feels so good to be done with Christmas, except now my apartment looks bare and ugly. I'll have to find something to put there. Of course, our apartment would look better if we had some drapes. okay bye

posted @ 4:21 PM

2.13.2002

i'll bring home the bacon bits

we'll make our parents grandparents

i'll take you out for breakfast at night

and then we'll go to sleep

:o)

I think we're going to eat breakfast at the diner (for dinner) tonight. Devan's in her car seat waiting. We just got home from the mall. There are some stupid people at the mall. Stupid dumb dumbies! I saw a teeshirt I liked but I have a hard time justifying 15.99 for a teeshirt. Come on people. 15.99!? And I also saw some pants I liked, but I just bought jeans in January, and even though these are not jeans, I still cannot buy them without feeling little twinges of guilt. I know I'd end up taking them back.

When I went over to macy's some lady asked me to take a survey. I said "no thanks". So then I leave macy's and i am sitting on a bench with devan, drinking my root beer and wiping the snotties off devan's nose, and this same woman I said "no thanks" to comes over to me and says "i know you said no, but i just want to explain this, we're paying women 5 dollars to try this purfume on, take this survey about it, and then bring the survey back on friday and we'll give you 20 more dollars." I asked a few questions, like "can I smell the perfume before I try it on?" and she was like well you have to put it on for a half hour to get the 5 dollars. And I said no thanks, because if it's gross, it will make me sick and I don't want to smell gross all night. Anyways as I am saying this she says real snippy "OK, Don't. I just saw you here, alone with a baby and thought you could use 25 dollars" and she walked away.

Is it wrong for me to be offended by her assuming that A. I am alone B. I need 25 dollars. I mean jeez, I was wearing a sweater and nice jeans and nice shoes. Devan wasn't in rags either. Weird. Maybe I am over analyzing this, but it irritates me when people are a. rude and b. make assumptions. okay. later poopsies.

posted @ 7:43 PM

2.05.2002

hi hi hi. I'm still in ohio. the reason i am here is because my great grandma wuebker is in the hospital. she's recovering(??) from triple bipass surgery. I was told that she wasn't going to make it, and so far she is.

anyhoo, I am really really bored right now and what i feel like doing is redesigning my website, but i can't figure out for the life of me how to use my moms adobe illustrator the way she's got it set up. And trying to play with it seems like more trouble than it's worth

posted @ 3:07 PM

2.04.2002

i'm in ohio and i don't want to go back to nj.

posted @ 12:38 AM