The girl with kaleidoscope eyes

1.28.2002

hi. i haven't posted much because jon got the internet shut off. he's fixing it today. i wish i could go to ohio right now. i am bored. unfortunately my insurance still needs to be paid. then i can go wherever i want.

posted @ 9:28 AM

1.23.2002

My journal blows now that I don't complain about Jon in it. The reason I don't talk about Jon in here anymore is because a few, well, actually QUITE a few people have gotten the wrong idea about Jon and me, and our relationship. I hear a lot of people saying things like "peggy wears the pants in this relationship" and "jon is peggy's bitch" ...and I've heard the whipping sounds you people make, and trust me, you think it's a lot funnier than it actually is.

Jon's definitely got the better deal in our relationship.(I guess I shouldn't look at it that way, but, sue me, I do.) Think about it, I left my friends, family, job, and the town I LOVED to come out here and work at WALMART while Jon found a job, just so we could "live together" I made this sacrifice, and I still haven't gotten over it. Maybe that's my problem. I was pregnant and miserable all last winter, and didn't go out and make any friends or even really dooo anything. and then we got rid of brutus. (this is heartbreaking stuff, folks) I still haven't made a single real friend and I hope I do someday, because that will make my life a little brighter. Not that having Devan isn't great, because it is. It just isn't everything and it shouldn't be everything.

It's funny that you guys think I am in control of everything. All I want is equality. I want everything to be fair, and it's not, but you wouldn't know that because you only know what I tell you, and trust me guys, you don't know much.

posted @ 12:28 AM

II have stated this once in the updates part of my site, but I updated the links page. Unfortunately I deleted the good one by accident so you're stuck with a crappy messed up version because I am too frustrated to fix it right now.

posted @ 12:14 AM

1.22.2002

i am eating a salad with fat free ranch. it tastes like crapola.

posted @ 12:19 PM

It is Tuesday morning. I am going to put Devan down for a nap in a couple minutes (when Blue's Clues ends). Stella's dragging all of my undergarments out of my room and onto the living room floor. I taught her how to sit yesterday. I used a peice of cheese. It worked pretty well. Devan will be crawling soon. she's so cute :)

posted @ 10:14 AM

1.17.2002

I got a puppy last wednesday. A chihuahua. We named her Stella. She's really small. My grampa died the next day. I went to Ohio the day after that. I still don't believe it. I woke up this morning in my bed and thought it was a dream until Stella licked me.

posted @ 11:41 AM

I got back to NJ from Ohio at 4:30 yesterday.

posted @ 11:37 AM

1.03.2002

Hi. Last night before I fell asleep I decided that I would no longer talk about super personal things in this journal. I am also going back and editing out personal things from previous entries. Sorry, but this website is getting too widespread to be as personal as I have been in the past. :)

posted @ 1:52 PM

1.02.2002

It's been awhile since I updated this. Both Christmas and New Years have passed. Both were pretty uneventful, not that I was expecting anything BIG or anything! I saw Snatch, which I was reluctant to see at first, but it was GOOOOOD! We had a nice new years eve . And that thing I had the sneaking suspicion about, well, I was right about it, but I prevented it from happening by blowing up and basically "ruining" christmas for him. I'm so nice, aren't I? Christmas was nice. It was Devan's first, and I felt very sentimental and happy about it all. New Years was great for me and Jon. We didn't do anything, but sit on the couch and have a nice time together. I think that's just what we needed. I'm in a happy mood for the first time in awhile. I need a dentist. badly.

posted @ 12:22 AM